Zoo-Car-9 (:

Friday, July 31, 2009

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I'm very very tired actually.
Yesterday, I slept for only 4 hours.
Just now, I accidentally dozed off while doing my Nursing Project stuffs.
I also slept for a few minutes during Management lecture.
Ohh mann, I need a break! Haha!

Lesson starts at 11 am.
Ends at 1 pm.
What a pathetic 2-hour lecture.
But luckily I got ICA meeting and bboy practice.
If not, I won't be in school. Haha.

My group will be presenting our Nursing Project later.
We're like 75% done for our product.
But the final product need to be up by next week.
So, that's still okay. Haha.

For DXO performance, there'll be just Arisa, Connie & I, for breaking.
Hmmmmm, I got no comments.
But we can still do it with 3 people.
Because nothing's impossible.
Haha, talk like understand only. Lols.

Seriously, I feel like sleeping.
Okay, bye.

12:57 AM
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Thursday, July 30, 2009

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Yayy, I passed my nursing lab re-assessment.
By right today remedial & tomorrow is retest.
At least I'm done with my assessment.
But now, I'm having headache because of Nursing Project and SWO.
Nursing Project presentation is tomorrow.
SWO is next Wednesday.

Just now was lunchtime performance.
It was just okay.
But disappointing because I crashed my headspin.
Anyways, DXO performance is this Saturday. (:
That's why I'm unable to watch BOTY Asia. ):
Hmmmm, very contradicting. HAHA!
Okay, to avoid confusion, what I meant is that I'm excited for this Saturday's performance at DXO, but on the other hand, I'm sad because I'm unable to watch BOTY Asia.

Nurses' Day + National Day celebration was great.
I came after lunchtime performance.
I had fun singing and dancing to the National Day song. Haha.
My favourite was when the lecturers did the Malay dance.
Anyways, I really had a great time because I had a great time. Lol.

After the celebration, I had ICA meeting.
& yes, whenever we're preparing for our ICA, we tend to get stuck somewhere.
But we went through thin and thick together in preparing all our ICAs.
& honestly speaking, they're such a love.
So guys, no worries yea, we'll make it through. (:

After doing project, I bumped to Fatin & the gang.
They just finished their NAPFA Test.
So I just tag along with them.
Guess what, Ms Gwen gave them a treat.
& yes, I got free pizza & a drink too. Haha.
After eating, Fatin, Syahh & I made our way home.
We walked all the way to AMK and then took bus from there.
Along the way, we had a great time talking.
We talked about lots of things.

Today, I was kind of smiley.
I got no idea why.
But I just feel that today was different from the past few days.
Past few days, I wasn't in my best.
Hopefully, I'll stay this way for the days to come.

12:39 AM
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

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Good morning, people!
Everyday is a new day.
& remember to start your day with a smile.
If you smile at people, the person you smiled to will be smiling.
& the person will pass the smile to other people.
Hmmmm, talk like understand only. Haha.

Anyways, yesterday was my shitty day.
Because I failed my nursing lab assessment.
It was all due to my tiredness & laziness.
I got CVP monitoring.
I thought that skill is quite easy.
But ya.... maybe I was over-confident that I didn't study & practice much.
Tomorrow is my remedial.
Thursday is my re-assessment.
I'm gonna do my best.
No, I must do my best.
Yeah!

My group have presented our Management ICA yesterday.
It's like FINALLY! Haha.
& now, I'm left with 2 ICAs, Nursing Project & SWO.
But there's nothing to be happy about.
Because I still need to revise for my exams.
2 weeks after exam, I will be having clinical posting.
Talking about clinical posting, the schedule is already out.
Clinical posting means that I'm gonna be MIA from school soon.
But I'll still come back school once awhile.

Yesterday was the showcase for tomorrow's lunchtime performance.
I feel everything was okay, yepps.
But it could be better.
& there'll also be a performance at DXO this Saturday.
Hopefully, it's not gonna be canceled AGAIN.

After showcase, I went to Esplanade to break.
I reached at 9 pm.
Yes, very late.
Seriously uhh, I really need to brush up my basics, like what Iz said.
Actually right, I'm so damn disappointed with myself.

Sometimes, I tend to think negatively about myself.
Sometimes, I also feel that I'm like a failure.
Failure sometimes makes me wanna do well to prevent myself from failing again.
But on the other hand, it also lowers down my self-esteem.
That's why I tend to think negatively of myself.
But whatever it is, like what I said at the beginning of this post,
SMILE! (:

Yatassha,
thanks for the few minutes of talk yesterday.
It made me feel good.
Thanks again. (:

To those people who I always share my feelings with,
& to those people who always give me encouragement,
thanks very much.
I really appreciate it. (:

Alright, I'll update again soon.
Bye.

8:50 AM
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Sunday, July 26, 2009

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Mr Happy is back!
I don't wanna be sad.
I wanna be as happy, like what I used to be.
I don't wanna think about all the unnecessary things because there're things which are more important to think about.
Jyeah!
& I hope I mean what I've just said. (:

I'm kind of pissed actually.
FOUR performances canceled in ONE week.
TWO school performances.
TWO performances at Zouk.

Last Thursday, there was a showcase for Zouk performance.
The showcase was okay.
We even like discussed about the costumes for the individual genres.

Last Friday, there was actually another showcase.
But damn, the performance was canceled.
So, no showcase, & I'm like so PHUCKED UP!
Because on that Friday, I have a test & I didn't even study much.
I guess the rest might feel the same way too.
Since, the showcase was canceled, I headed my way to Esplanade to break.
I turned up to be more happier to see my bros.
Talking about them, all of them are getting doper.
& I'm still stagnant. Hmmmmm.

Yesterday morning, I had 6 hours of very effective project meeting. Haha.
Management ICA presentation slides were done, like finally.
Just left with presenting it, tomorrow.
& a written assignment.
After doing Management, we did Nursing Project.
We're done with the poster. Yayy!
We're left with a bit more to be done, yepps.
& we're gonna finish up by this week, because we've to present it on Friday.

After doing project, I headed to City Hall.
Me & Xinyi walked and took the same train.
I talked to her and told her why I wasn't in my best for the last few days.
& yepps, I felt great after that.
When I have some problems, I just need someone to talk to.
To those people who I've expressed my problems to, thanks very much!
I really appreciate it. (:

Once I reached City Hall, I went to Marina Square to get some food.
But before I headed to BK, I saw a shirt, which I find it nice, which costs $19, at Topman.
So I bought it. Haha.

After buying my food at BK, I headed to Esplanade underpass.
Iz, Farina, Sherman & Jude were there & they said that we're not allowed to break there because of the NDP. (-_-)
So we have no idea where to head to.
But we ended up heading for RP. Haha.
I had fun breaking.
But I really need to think of sets, so that when I wanna battle for example, I can just do the set and maybe edit a bit to fit the song.
I have some sets, but I forget what was my set when I was battling Sherman. Hmmmmm.

24th July is the date when my parents get married.
They've been together for 26 years already.
I'm so proud of them.
Happy 26 Years Together! (:

I need motivation to stop smoking! Haha.

Okay, bye.

9:56 AM
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

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It's exactly 1 month to my birthday.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
But sadly, it falls on a exam period.
And it's on the first day of fasting month.
Cool right? Haha.

I just came back home a few minutes ago.
Today is the first time after weeks and months, which I came back home early this early.
I came back home late almost everyday.
One of the reason is because I need to study for my nursing lab assessment, which is either tomorrow or Monday.
But most probably tomorrow.

I can't stop thinking about it.
In the bus.
In the lecture hall.
In the tutorial room.
In the dance studio.
Everywhere.
Anywhere.
I just can't stop thinking about it.
I didn't do much.
I'm kind of shy to make the move.
Then how?
I don't want it to be like what happened about a month ago.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I'm not desperate to get a girlfriend.
But I just have feelings towards this person.

"I'll make love to you
Like you want me to
And I'll hold you tight
Baby all through the night
I'll make love to you
When you want me to
And I will not let go
'Till you tell me to"

The words above is a lyric by Boyz II Men entitled "I'll Make Love To You".

Wish me luck in everything.

Till then,
Bubbye.

5:23 PM
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

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I'm physically and emotionally tired.
I'm tired of everything.
I'm tired with how things are going.
This few days, I wasn't in my best.
I'm like daydreaming most of the time.
I'm always thinking about things which I'm not supposed to think about.
But no worries, I'm gonna be okay. (:

Just now, I'm quite unhappy with what happened.
It's all because of sociology ICA presentation which created a confusion.
If anyone wanna know if I'm showing my temper just now, yes I am.
But I'm really sorry if I accidentally showed my temper.
I didn't mean it.

Let's stop being emo.
Hmmmmm, I wanna know what will happen if there're to be only men or women only living in this planet? Haha.
Okay, that's a very random question. Haha.

I'm very very worried for my nursing lab.
Have not been doing a proper study.
So I purposely came to school early just now to study.
And guess what, Nurul called me and told me that there's management tutorial today.
But actually it's next Tuesday.
Aiyo, haha.

'Against The World' by Robin Thicke is very addictive.
I always play that song whenever I on my MP3.
It's me and you against the world.. Haha.

Okay, I is going to stop here for now.
Bubbye.

8:13 PM
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Monday, July 20, 2009

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I'm very excited about today.
Because FB will be performing.
But excited-ness turned to annoying-ness when I heard that performance was cancelled.
And they even can say that we can perform tomorrow but no excuse letters will be given.
It's like WTF!?!
Later in the evening, Arisa told me that we can perform and excuse letters will be given.
But I don't think majority would like to perform, I guess.
Talking about Arisa, I'm always excited to see her.
Arisa is love!
Hmmmm, by the way, if you read this, jangan kembang tau? HAHA!

In the morning, I had my AN 5 ICA presentation.
We did okay.
But at least we've presented that module.
We still have management, sociology of work and nursing project.

Thursday is my nursing lab external assessment.
Friday is the theory paper.
And I yet to study that much.
I really really need to start study.

Wish me luck in everything.

Happy 21st Birthday, Dori!

Bubbye.

9:32 PM
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Sunday, July 19, 2009

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Yo people!
Just now I had a performance at Soka.
We all were told to meet at 12 pm but changed to 11.30 am, but you know.. Haha.
Me & Arisa were the earliest because she wants me to go through with her the choreo.
We planned to meet up at 10 am, but I reached at 10.30 am.
Sorry about that.
Anyways, the performance was goood.
Well done, people.
Bboys & Bgirls, keep it up.
Remember to always do your best in every performances.

Tomorrow is my AN 5 ICA presentation.
I need to do some stuffs before I can go & break.
I really really feel like breaking.

Aite, aite.
That's all for now.
Bubbye.

6:11 PM
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Something happened yesterday.
I think so much that I cried.
It's okay for a guy to cry.
And I feel better after that.
I really need to thank all the people who've given me encouragements.
Thanks again. (:

Just now, I had a performance at Suntec City as early as 8+ am.
Before performance, we did warm up.
After performance, slacked and talked at McDonald's.
Then, it's like almost all who've performed will be going to Dori's birthday party.
So some of them went home, I guess.
Then Groov-E had another performance at Geylang.
So, I decided to shop. Hehhs.
I went to buy some stuffs at Peninsula Plaza and Bugis.
I bought a blue Dickies pants and 2 t-shirts.
I feel good after I shopped.
But I must start saving again, for the future. Hehhs.
After I shopped at Bugis, I don't know where to go as I don't wanna go back home.
So I went to the library.
I sat down on the floor, but in the end the librarian told me not to sit on the floor.
So I ended up going Esplanade underpass to study and then session with BR.
Although I'm no longer in BR, I feel good breaking with them.

I really don't know how to start getting close to a girl.
It's not that I'm desperate to have a girlfriend.
It's just that... hmmmm, I don't know what to say.
I know that I'm not that hot.
But yaa..
Okay, stop being emo. Haha.

Tomorrow, I'll be having a performance at Soka, a Japanese organization.
I think, after the performance, I should head for home.
I need to study for my tests and prepare for my AN 5 ICA presentation.
And I'm quite glad that our nursing project is like 60% done.
Yepps.

I have nothing to add on.
So I'll end here.
Lots of love from me, especially to this someone.
Peace! (:

12:09 AM
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Friday, July 17, 2009

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I'm very very tired.
Tired of everything and anything.
I might look okay, but no one knows how I'm feeling.
Sometimes, I just feel like breaking down.
ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGG.

Just now was my internal nursing lab practical test.
I got the function test and I just passed.
I feel so shitty, but what to do.

Last Tuesday was Get Down Battle Volume 2.
It was like my first time freestyle hip-hop in front of so many people.
I went for audition but didn't get into the next round.
It's okay, at least I got the experience.

Next week will be a very tiring week.
Monday is AN 5 ICA presentation and the slides isn't done yet.
Tuesday, I not sure what I'm having.
Wednesday also I not sure.
Thursday is my external nursing lab practical exam.
Friday is lunchtime performance & my nursing lab theory test.
Saturday & Sunday, I'm having performance at Zouk.
I don't think I even have time for myself.
Mann, I need a break from everything.
Hmmmmmmmm.
By the way, I'm not referring to anyone.
Yepps.

Breaking choreo is done.
Formation is done.
Overall, I'm impressed with my bboys & bgirls.
I was quite worried that they might not be able to catch my choreo.
But they prove me wrong.
Well done, guys.

I miss breaking with BR.
I really hope to break with them again soon.

To those people who've given support & encouragement, thanks very much.
I really appreciate it.

Happy Birthday, Alicia!

That's all for now.
I need to do my project.

Bye.

12:51 AM
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

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My class ended at 3 pm just now.
I'm now at computer lab with Nurul, waiting for the time to fly.
Later in the evening, I'll be having a battle.
I'm kind of nervous for the battle.

Today was a sucky day.
I don't know what I was thinking just now that I can't really concentrate in class.
I'm kind of stress with some stuffs actually.
With studies, dance, life, etc.

But everything will be fine.
I'm not gonna commit suicide. Haha.

Arisa, get well soon.
Don't stress stress like me k.
Cheer up! (:

3:56 PM
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

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Life have been rather sucky.
Yes, very sucky!
I think I've been slacking quite a lot for the past few days.
I don't know, I just feel so. Hmmmmmm.
GRRRRRRRRRR!

There're many things to be done but not done.
Internal nursing lab practical test haven't really study.
The following week got nursing lab theory test haven't really study.
ICAs also need to be done.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
It's like what the phuck la!

Rather then doing something useful, I watched TV and not opening my book.
Because it's like 4 hours of Michael Jackson.
Then after that, I went to Hougang Mall to get speakers.
Because I feel like getting it & I feel bad borrowing people's speakers everytime during bboy.
But I just hope that the speakers isn't soft as the speakers I bought before this.

My knee is getting more painful each day when it's bent.
I don't know if I should go to polyclinic for a check up.
Mdm Chua told me to go for check up but I don't know if I should because I went to the private doctor weeks ago & he said it's nothing serious.
Talking about Mdm Chua, it's so nice of her of letting me sitting on the chair during nursing lab.

I think I sucks in BGR.
Is it so difficult to start the ball rolling?
I think I have phobia in confessing.
After so many confessions, I feel like giving up on confessing.
What to do.
What do girls want to see in guys?
Hmmmmmmmmm.
But no matter what happen, I must be patient.
Patience is a virtue.
& the time will come.
By the way, I'm not desperate.

Next week, there'll be a performance at Suntec City.
In short, there'll be lots of performances.
I don't know if I can really cope with it.
I feel as if I'm so happy-go-lucky.
No need to think so much.
But sometimes, I feel like... you know.
Now I feel as if my life is all about dancing.
I feel as if I heckare my studies.
This really sucks.
Buck up, Zul!
You always ask people to cheer up.
But in the end, I didn't.

Okay, I got things to do.
Lots of love!
Peace! (:

7:25 PM
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

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Hey people!
I'm back again! Haha!

Life is getting great!
But on the other hand, it's getting more tougher.
This semester's ICAs are like more difficult than before.
& I really need to catch up with my studies.

Dancing really makes me feel GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
Especially bboying.
When I having problems, I will try to forget the problem by dancing.
Yeah! (:

Talking about dancing, FB practice is gonna be kind of hectic for me as there're upcoming performances.
Furthermore, I need to choreo for bboy.
And thank God, I'm done with it except for the formation.
Formation can be done later.
But I really hope that my guys and girls can catch my choreo.
& I'm really glad that they can catch the steps except for the timing.
Most importantly, I need to finish everything by tomorrow.
Yepps.
I know you guys can do it! (:

Anyways, 2 weeks ago was FB camp.
It was fun.
Sujata & I were the medics for the camp.
It was damn cooool! HAHA!
My favourite part was the night walk.
You should know why. Hehhs.
For the dance class, I was put in-charge of bboying.
By right, my bro was supposed to teach but he's in camp.
But all the seniors who can bboy helped out too.
Thanks guys for the help.
Most importantly, I hope everyone enjoy the camp especially the juniors.
FB FB FB GO! (:

The day before FB camp was NR0716 bbq.
It's a fun & rainy day.
Although it's raining, we still bbq.
& the weird thing is that who will do a bbq as early as 11 am in the rain?
It's US. HAHA!
But it's a fun day & I feel gooood because I can see the bond.
I'm gonna miss the class very very much.
NR0716 is LOVE! (:

3 weeks ago was StageArts camp.
It was equally fun as of FB camp although there're some problems.
But seriously, my batch really really slacked during the camp. HAHA!
But still, I got help out during the crash course. Hehhs.
Talking about SA, SA production is postponed to September due to H1N1. Hmmmmmm.
But at least those acting will have more time to practice.
Jia you, guys!
& lastly, I'm really sorry to SA because I didn't really commit much to SA.
I'm really thankful that you guys understand my situation.
Once a StageArter, always a StageArter. (:

Recently, I've been breaking with BR.
Although I'm no longer in the crew, I'm glad that they still welcome me to break with them.
If they want to accept me back to the crew, I'll be glad to rep BR again.
If not, it's okay.
I'm more than happy that I can still break with them.
YEAH! (:

Guess what, I bought green Dickies and green sponge cap.
& also a high-cut Converse which cost $20.
Yeah!
But actually right, I'm kind of scared to wear my green Dickies because it's very bright. Haha!
But it's very FRESH!
& I look very green. HAHA!

There're lots of things which I wanna share but I'm kind of lazy to type. HAHA!

So, I'll end here.
PEACE! (:

11:19 PM
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